Post 073.

today i awoke with my eyes swollen from salt water and sleep deprivation 

if i dreamed last night, i haven't the faintest idea

i feel, to some extent, broken

and i am clueless to how to fix myself 

The body aches and that ache takes its time

but you'll get over yours, and i'll get over mine

Post 072.

it literally feels like someone punched me in the heart 

my chest feels like it's caving in on me 

breathing is something i have to remember to do, and when i do, it hurts.

ouch. 

Post 071.

that's it, i did it, i'm ready, and i'm here 

i'm officially a student at santa monica college

i'm on the verge of so much. i have so many options that are open for me to grab at. now all i have to do is wait 10 more days, and jump. i get this one chance to lose myself and i'm going to take full advantage of it. when my feet leave that cliff i've been pacing for months, i get to leave everything and everyone behind me. i can cut the bad ties and form new ones. 

world i'm here, i'm ready,  now take me.

Post 070.

i'm still wait for you to feel this 

This is the moment that you know
That you told her that you loved her, but you don't
You touch her skin and then you think
That she is beautiful, but she don't mean a thing to me
Yeah, she is beautiful, but she don't mean a thing to me

Post 069.

last night made me feel like the old us, the old me, and that's the worst part