what would have become of me if i would have stayed in montebello? continued on to montebello high school? lived in that same house in the cul-de-sac that i grew up in? would i still be the same person i am right now?
i look at the people i went to school with from kindergarden to 8th grade and at the time i was so lost buying into what i thought i liked, not knowing myself and judging myself based on the amount of friends i had and how cool we seemed, but now as i look at myself, and i believe i have grown in high school. i see them, and most of them seem to be in the same place with the same questions. they're a flock of sheep going in the same direction. as much as some of these people mean to me, would i have been happy? would i be ditching classes? not trying my hardest in school or volunteering? would i be smoking out before, during, and after school? would my social life be confined to back yard shows and montebello dance parties? i'm not putting that lifestyle down for every person is made happy in a different way, it's just that think about 'who i could have been?' makes me grateful for the person i am now, for i am happy.
although ramona is an all girls and has a confusing and at times closed minded administration, i am happy to soon become a rcss alumni. the people i have met, some wonderful and lifelong friends, others some of the most naive and ignorant, have all shaped me. i have experienced so much more that i would have in that small town. i have traveled, lived, and become happy.
i'm on my way to finding out who i am.
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