Post 046.

it took a delicate man to tell this story, and that's you

(miss u)

Post 045.

"no, it does not exist for you. you exist for it. you have come because it exists."

i am fascinated with lights 

although light pollution is the enemy 

there is nothing more relaxing and humbling than walking onto my balcony 

and seeing the whole city of west hollywood, and beyond, lit up. 

it's a nice way to know you're not alone.

Post 044.

" i love you also means i love you more than anyone loves you, or has loved you, or will love you, and also, i love you in a way that no one loves you, or has loved you, or will love you, and also, i love you in a way that i love no one else, and never have loved anyone else, and never will love anyone else."

-jonathan safran foer, everything is illuminated 

Post 043.

we have chosen HOPE over fear

Post 042.

finals; i've been through enough and i'm over it. studying for psychology has got me going slightly crazy. fitting 6 chapters of information onto a 4x6 notecard is not my idea of a joyous time. since my boyfriend has left me for sleep, i will turn to you blogspot. you get a look into my finals insanity. enjoi

Post 041.

dreading finals. not because i don't think i will do well, but solely on the fact that they are finals. i am allotted an hour and a half to prove that i have been learning this past semester. i have already taken tests and completed homework, so why make a test of everything combined. waste of paper if you ask me. plus, i do not agree with the fact that my school gives us finals after winter break. there is nothing i can do, so i suppose i am off to study psychology. (at least until kiwii picks me up.)

Post 040.

today went by in a grumpy blur. finals are next week and i started to feel that heavy cloud creeping up on me. i forgot my lunchbox at home and had to survive on tea candies, nuts, and water. during lunch and two other classes i worked on my final project for computer animation. let me tell you switching between photoshop, dreamweaver, and firefox for html gets tedious. if only i was super l33t at computers like my boyfriend. 

finally school ended at i was on the bus home and all i wanted to do was sleep. my insomnia-esque habits are returning. so late in the game and at what a inopportune time. 

hopefully tomorrow will be better. josh and i are having a sushi day.

p.s. i was able to buy the mp3 version of Davy, and after several listens i love it. possibly the only part of my day that didn't blend into one.

Post 039.

On seeing the 100% perfect girl 

one beautiful april morning

- a story by haruki murakami

♥

Post 038.

snap my picture 

(with my new yone x checki)

it arrived in a box designed by fafi, good!

a photo by yone, better!

my very own instax! BEST!

it arrived today so i haven't been able to test the water (or the lenses)

but i'll be sure to update once up i'm out and snapping

it's amazing how getting this package has turned my stressful day into a great one

p.s.please keep photography alive!

visit lomography and buy yourself a camera.

Post 037.

what font are you?

yes, i'm courier 

Post 036.

it's just a fond farewell to a friend

he said really i just want to dance 

good and evil matched perfect, it's a great romance  

i see you're leaving me and taking up with the enemy 

it's just a fond farewell to a friend

my best friend alexander duran leaves tomorrow morning for stanford and he's taking mas with him. i'm so unbelievably proud of them. 

but although tonight i'll go to der's farewell dinner and wish him the best of luck with the happiest smile on my face and hug him in joy, inside a part of me will be sad. as i may have mentioned before der got me through one of the roughest patches i've gone through. he was there whenever i need him. always a phone call and a 5-minute drive away. now with his new home being up north i'm here to make it (somewhat) on my own. he was my outside strength. it's true he have had some epic fights. he is the evil to my good, or visa-versa, but no matter what i knew i had him. i still will, just a little further. 

(miss u)

Post 035.

back to you?!

i've been waiting for a new coconut records album since i picked up 'nighttiming' two summers ago. finally 10 days until the release of 'davy' and i'm already addicted. thanks to amiestreet i can listen to about the first half of the song, and that's all i've been listening to, and let me tell you, it's amazing. 

jason schwartzman never fails. 

songs to check out: drummer, wandering around, and i am young

p.s. tonight bow&sparrows: cupcakes and punch, it's happening.

Post 034.

all i wanted was to be your housewife.

friday night, a little dinner for one. 

how to pasta by devin

boil pasta for 10minutes 

drain pasta and let sit while sauce is made. 

1/4 cup olive oil, garlic, salt (garlic), pepper(lemon), parsley 

combined together and heat (microwave works fine)

plate the pasta and sauce (add fresh parmesan and an artichoke heart)

pour a glass of wine and 

enjoi.

Post 033.

Who i could have been. . .

what would have become of me if i would have stayed in montebello? continued on to montebello high school? lived in that same house in the cul-de-sac  that i grew up in? would i still be the same person i am right now? 

i look at the people i went to school with from kindergarden to 8th grade and at the time i was so lost buying into what i thought i liked, not knowing myself and judging myself based on the amount of friends i had and how cool we seemed, but now as i look at myself, and i believe i have grown in high school. i see them, and most of them seem to be in the same place with the same questions. they're a flock of sheep going in the same direction. as much as some of these people mean to me, would i have been happy? would i be ditching classes? not trying my hardest in school or volunteering? would i be smoking out before, during, and after school? would my social life be confined to back yard shows and montebello dance parties? i'm not putting that lifestyle down for every person is made happy in a different way, it's just that think about 'who i could have been?' makes me grateful for the person i am now, for i am happy. 

although ramona is an all girls and has a confusing and at times closed minded administration, i am happy to soon become a rcss alumni. the people i have met, some wonderful and lifelong friends, others some of the most naive and ignorant, have all shaped me. i have experienced so much more that i would have in that small town. i have traveled, lived, and become happy. 

i'm on my way to finding out who i am.

Post 032.

today's gone to shit. i was excited to see my brothers but then my dad informs way too late that he's running late. and why can't you just volunteer? "you know what i'd still love to go" instead of making me beg you to drive and come. i hate the phrase "i'll do whatever you want me to" well it makes me come off selfish when i always say "well yeah i'd like you to still come"

i don't know. i'm having a terrible horrible no good very bad day.

Post 031.

we're going to be together as one, forever

last night in an arena, filled with more people than i could have imagined, counting down the last few seconds of 2008, i realized that the friends i have, although few were absent, are some of the most amazing people i've ever met. there is a bond that i shared with those people that i have never experienced. as we stood in a circle kissing each other and throwing our hands together, swearing to be real friends forever (even until we're all married), i saw how much these people are apart of me and that if i ever needed they would be there. 2008 brought us together and 2009 is going to make us stronger. there could not have been a better way to welcome two thousand and nine.

so this is the new year. . .